"This is how Oscar Wilde relates a similar experience in De Profundis."
Lord_Alfred Douglas by George Charles Beresford
Public DomainLord_Alfred Douglas by George Charles Beresford - Credit: George Charles Beresford

 De Profundis (from the depths) is the 50,000 word letter Oscar Wilde wrote to his lover Lord Alfred Douglas whilst in Reading Gaol. It provides an historical account of his sins, suffering and sentencing as well as a fascinating insight into Victorian prison life. In it he pours obloquy on Alfred Douglas whom he sees as largely responsible for his downfall, and explores the redemption he has found through his ordeal. After his release, Wilde's remaining days were spent in France, where he languished penniless and moribund. He died of ill-health at the age of forty six.

Oscar Wilde on Book Drum


The letter begins:

Suffering is one very long moment.  We cannot divide it by seasons.  We can only record its moods, and chronicle their return.  With us time itself does not progress.  It revolves.  It seems to circle round one centre of pain.  The paralysing immobility of a life every circumstance of which is regulated after an unchangeable pattern, so that we eat and drink and lie down and pray, or kneel at least for prayer, according to the inflexible laws of an iron formula: this immobile quality, that makes each dreadful day in the very minutest detail like its brother, seems to communicate itself to those external forces the very essence of whose existence is ceaseless change.  Of seed-time or harvest, of the reapers bending over the corn, or the grape gatherers threading through the vines, of the grass in the orchard made white with broken blossoms or strewn with fallen fruit: of these we know nothing and can know nothing. 

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