"lots of people have found answers that were perfectly satisfactory for them. Old Ruysbroek for instance."
Blessed John of Ruysbroeck (1293–1381), Flemish mystic, known as the "Ecstatic Teacher" and the "New Dionysius".

From 1343 until his death, Ruysbroeck lived in a hermitage in a forest. There are traces of pantheism in his work.

Ruysbroeck insisted that the soul finds God in its own depths, and noted three stages of progress in what he called the spiritual ladder of Christian attainment: the active life, the inward life, and the contemplative life.did not teach the fusion of the self in God, but held that at the summit of the ascent the soul still preserves its identity.